Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Hello :)

Its been so long since I have posted here! I love the idea of this blog and I need to commit to some time to make it the blog I originally wanted. A place for ideas and inspiration for people living and coping with disabilities. I do have some very good news, I got a great new job. I work for Target in their corporate offices. Its been very challenging to learn everything that I have had to learn. So much more than I ever thought. But it is coming together now very well. I am very happy and the sense of relief in my life is nothing short of a miracle. The timing was amazing. Everything fell into place beautifully. I started my training the Monday after I came back from my vacation from Cape Cod. As soon as I started I saw on the news that the government could not come to an agreement on funding the emergency unemployment benefits, so I would have not had that anymore after the 20th of june. I cant even stand to think about where I would be now had I not got this job. Target is a wonderful company to work for.

Now, I am learning to make friends with my cane! I just hate using it and rarely did, but its not an option now. I work in a large building. I have to use it with my left hand, I am left handed and now I feel like I am always one hand short. I feel like about 50 years older than I am and its just frustrating.

I was on google looking for some decorative canes. I think I need a pink one. But then again does that draw more attention to myself??? I guess if you have to use one, it might as well be with some attitude! lol I found nothing really. Some very pretty, elegant ones for men. I may have to give this some thought. Maybe come up with my own designs. Might be something new to design. :) Like I need another project. But I will keep you all posted. Have a very pretty day and I will be back after searching for new and inspirational ideas to share.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Thank You :)

I really post on this blog to far apart. I have just been spending some time reading all of your sweet comments this evening. I cant thank you enough for letting me talk out loud and figure this life out. :) I have met some amazing friends by blogging. I have even been lucky enough to meet so many in person.

I am not sure what happened over the last couple months, but my universe really tilted! lol I actually had become paralyzed as to what to even do anymore. It seemed to be coming from all directions. Sometimes time is our friend, sometimes not so much! But time has passed, my stars are aligning once again and it feels great! lol I believe its what you take away from these times that is important. To really examine situations and for Gods sake be honest with yourself. If you can change something, do it. If things have been out of your control, do your best to let it go. Hopefully it will make you appreciate the joy and happiness that is sure to be right around the corner.

There is so much emphasis on staying positive and believing. If you do this everything you want will happen. These really are very important, but in the dark hours it can add to your fear because you feel like even more of a failure for not being able to stay positive or that you didnt believe the right way. I ask myself, do I really not believe in my dreams enough. Sometimes its just not going to be possible to be 100 percent positive. We have fear or tragic losses we have to deal with. But hopefully time will be on your side. Dark times will hopefully pass quickly and we can get back to our wonderful life! Its really been a beautiful spring this year, and its really sparked my creativity and I am excited to get back to my art and my business.

I really appreciate all of your comments and advice. Have a pretty day! (()) gail

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Dont Miss Opportunities :)

It is so easy to fall back into bad habits. Isnt It? One thing I have struggled with for the most part of my life is feeling guilty about being who I am. Or doing what I want. I also know that I am not by any means the only woman out there with this issue. It's always more acceptable to put children, spouses,parents and jobs first. Sometimes you really have to. But not all of the time. This is one of the great advantages of growing older. Things change and you appear to become wiser. ( It appears to myself I am anyway. lol) At the very least you can prioritize better and it least recognize when you are not being true to yourself. But I sure can fall back into old beliefs and habits very quickly. I am speaking for myself here, I am single, both of my daughters have families of their own now and sadly my parents have passed on. So the way I see it, now is my time. I have worked very hard my whole life, raised kids, took care of ailing parents, been divorced, health issues, job lay offs etc. This list is alot longer, but I dont have to tell you how it is. You also know how it is. But the ironic thing here is the tables have turned. Other well meaning people now think they know whats best for me and I find myself feeling very guilty and doing things I dont want to do, all because someone else thinks its for the best. Somehow they all know whats better for me and my current circumstances. They appear to think I dont have a thread of common sense or the fact that I handled all of the above mentioned circumstances in my life without any help from them. OK, I am beginning to rant here. lol Thats not the purpose of this post. I am thinking outloud and I am making a declaration, here in writing to be OK with my descisions. I am smart and intelligent and want to make the most of my life experiences. I hope that you are too. Its a cliche, but so true, this is not a dress rehearsal. I have many things I still want to do, I have places I want to go and with my dissability issues who know how long I will have to take advantage of all of these wonderful opportunities. I dont want to be sitting in that rocking chair on the porch some day in the future looking back on my life and regretting missed opportunities. So, I say with the most respect to my loved ones and friends, thank you for everything you do for me, thank you for being there and most of all thank you for understanding I can make the right descions for me.

Have a great week, spring is coming. Dont miss any opportunies coming your way and have lots of fun!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Its a beautiful day in the neighborhood :)

While I know much of the country is very cold, and even buried in snow, this is the time in the desert Southwest to finally enjoy some beautiful weather. As I am sitting here at 8am its 55 degrees outside and will be 70-ish later. The birds are singing in the trees outside my window and seem quite happy. The cats are sitting in the window watching them. I think they would be happier if they could get out at the birds, but you cant make everyone happy I guess! I love this time of year. Its very short too. But there is nothing better to clear your head or for your state of mind and even good health than to sit out in the fresh air in the quiet and just breath and relax. So, this is a short post to wish you a beautiful saturday, fresh air and good health...... I am on my way outsit to sit for abit.

Have a pretty day,,,,gail